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"The time has come," the Walrus said...
So, I've been thinking about this for a while, but there is a very crooked line dividing the friends I have on my list and there's one side that I trust and one side that has disappointed me and/or for lack of better words irritated me in one way or another, or you've just simply been connected with that side (sorry!). Right now I'm going to post this and make everything clear and out in the open, get things off my chest and by this weekend, a lot of you won't be on my friend's list anymore.
Before things with Tegesta started to head down hill for the last time, before it closed it's doors (no hard feelings!), it was very apparent to me that Nash's lines were growing thinner and while I tried to keep writing her without one very important factor in her life, it was difficult. I didn't push because I didn't want to be a disturbance to that writer's life, however, this line made such an impact on my character that it made it near impossible to write Nash how she'd been molded since she was brought in in the beginning.
After I opened ~90036 I was hoping that I could get back into the groove with her, maybe get her back on track. It didn't work. After talking it over, Jase was being brought back into the picture. This elated me. I couldn't have been happier. This was one of my favorite all time pairings and it was being reunited (and it felt so good). I had ideas, them running into each other, the awkward 'I miss you' conversations, everything. However, when the time came, I didn't get to do as much as I wanted, and without a word or warning to me as a writer, it ended. I had hoped I'd get word that it was something else, but inactivity ultimately removed Jase from Nash's life again. There was nothing I could do to Nash except start her over, change her history so that she'd be different and not the softy she'd turned into.
I revised her biography in my head and wrote down a few key notes before sticking her in ~cabbies and she's doing much better. But having to constantly see that I either wasn't good enough or there wasn't enough time at the time of ~90036 opening to write with me and I wasn't aware, but that there are threads going on with this character and others but not mine? It hurts my feelings. So instead of dwelling on it and letting it continue to hurt my feelings? I'm going to end it. I'm going to stop myself from having to see it by removing people from my list. If that hurts your feelings? I'm sorry, however, I need to look out for myself in this ooc rp world, because there are few people out there who have my back otherwise.
I guess the reason why I'm writing this is not to get sympathy or PLEASE KEEP ME! comments. I don't need them. I honestly don't write in here as often as I'd like and there are only a few key people I comment on anyway. I've already made a massive cut before and it feels right to do another one. I wish you all good luck in whatever the future brings for you. It was nice knowing you while I did.
-Kira
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